Life As I See It

Me. I am my consistent friend, foe, angel and demon. Been in crossroads where I was left cross-eyed because of the trouble I left me in. Stay taking L's and hoping I'll win. Not use to "we" moments because I'm so used to "me" moments. Never mind the fear made because of the graves dug. Drowning in my private ocean when I just needed to swim. Forgot my floaties and had to rely on them.... 28 years old and I'm struggling with my dark side. Sitting in my room, with my soul stuck outside. Not gonna lie, as hard as I try; feeling like I'm ultimately going to fail. Living in Atlanta like I'm 3 steps from hell where I watch Her cook up the pot and I wait for my plate. Started early this year and I'mma stay late. Keeping low while getting high to cope so in my airspace. Lemme start my humble pie after I finish saying my Grace.

So now I know how it feels to have meaningless sex..... Nothing. I feel absolutely nothing. Linked up with my ex, hung out and the end result was sex. The thoughts in my head were very in the moment to say the least. My goal was to snatch her soul. And I did that. Now that I did, I have no idea why I stayed as long as I did. The ease of access is simple and I see why there were sooooo many people in and out of the relationship. But she assumed that I wanted a relationship again..... Meanwhile, in our universe. All I wanted was to see what the other side of the fence was like.