Life As I See It

Right now, I'm currently working on getting through the purge of a person that I tried to woo for 10+ years. I know that sounds like a hyperbole; but I can assure that I'm being truthful. What I could do; I did. And what I couldn't do; I tried. But I couldn't do anything that I don't agree with. And it calls to question just how "off the reservation" I am..... I've saved people from suicide and not in the manner of calling their bluff or using scripture. But by talking to them..... Besides....I'll always love you.... But I'll love me more.... Continued on 8/25...... As I truly understand what I am dealing with in terms of my recovery efforts. Because while I saw this coming, it still stings......a lot...... I realize that the process won't be so long winded; arduous and painful. Solely because I wasn't at fault this time [much]. I was called manipulative and selfish; but who isn't? It's said that hindsight is 20/20 so e...

"For the longest time; you asked me why I'm here. What's my purpose in staying? Have you ever considered that maybe my purpose is to help you find your purpose? You're right, maybe you don't want me. Maybe I'm not the one who keeps your mind at ease and heart full. But what if I am? What if I am the one but it is not my time yet. I've always been here for you, through my bloodshed, pain and stress and yours. This isn't about pulling rank this is about dedication. You don't believe that I have a relationship with Christ. But with Christ-like patience; fortitude and sacrifice. I have stood feet planted; arms-like welcoming friends and enemies alike to give and take as they saw fit. We believe different because we are different. But I fight for an audience with you; you've judged me by my past; not present or future. I was confused and in pain back then. But I'm coming to accept the crosses I have to bear in life. So while you focus on your ...