Life As I See It

like a hard headed teenager? 🤔 Picture posted makes sense yeah? Growing up in a closed off environment is and was different. I taught me how to be well....me. Ups and downs, I was here for it. I had to be, I didn't have drugs and alcohol to check me out. So I had to practice to make better. Thinking about writing a book, Dia Michelle (I didn't know that I was talking to a famous R&B artist.) Helped consider the seriousness of the thought, I created a book with drawings for publication in 4th grades. S/O to Maria Lazaro for helping me with that back then. I wonder how she's doing. But I've grown right? I mean, compared to where I should have been, versus where I am now. There's a enormous amount of effort implemented. All the abuse and pain.

[This is totally safe to read in public just a risque phrasing.] Here's to me FINALLY dealing with life in a manner that's productive and conducive to learning from my past mistakes. Last night, I was talking to an old friend about the changes I've made in the past 2 years (because you know, time waits for no man). So as I am updating her, I asked: " What the hell? Isn't this the same person who threatened you with a restraining order for touching base and being friendly? So you see Pandora's Box again in 12 years and you open the lid?! " And I had to relax and understand that yes, I did open the box, I'm fully prepared for whatever comes out and in a way I think I always have been. This time around, we are going to do something different: we are going to maintain the energy needed to be friends and remain friends this time around, it doesn't hurt..like at all. So come on Pandora, show me your contents.