Life As I See It

Well it's March 26th and its the end of the worst I've ever had. Sunday-argued with my supposed to be homeboy about who I date. Dad went ballistic over things I don't remember. Night before the GHSGT, my states graduation test. Monday-took the English Language Arts portion. Talk to a old flame and became Facebook married(essentially). Chilled or at least tried, dealt with more drama. Tuesday-woke to the Mathematics portion was in a daze but I was able to focus and finish. Dealt with some heartache and drama but otherwise was unaffected by the day. Wednesday-rose early for the Social Studies portion, my favorite subject, and did well. More drama from Yakki and his I hate your girlfriend crusade. Thursday-Finish the week with Science, and had a pretty peaceful day. Except the re-entry of my OTHER old flame but we aren't going anywhere now [fortunately] Friday-BREAK UP AT THE WORST TIME!- My homegirl broke up with me......tch like it matters though. A week...

I hang with backstabbers Associate with blacksliders Date attention hogs Lay down with dogs Protect the weak Bring up the meek Labled a heretic Hung before the Inquistion Take advantage of Gives but not given love Dragged through the town of asses Beaten then drowned by the masses No savior, no sanctity No appeasement, just relentless insanity Followers of vanity Believers of the sadistic .smh. -- *Is trusting you again such a good idea? [-_-] I Guess I'll just have to wait and see won't I? (: )*

Whats me without you the sky minus the blue A hustler without a hustle is like a Director without a crew. Sick and tired of waiting Not worried about paper-chasing Sick of the pain you always creating My Family saying "Move On" "Nah we straight man" Always fussing and fighting Day out and Day In Now you on my ass Saying I gotta "Stay out or Stay In" I'm trying to stay commited But the attitudes not called for Even though I love you I'm not walk that door. -- *Is trusting you again such a good idea? [-_-] I Guess I'll just have to wait and see won't I? (: )*

My Spirit and Conscience vs. My Feelings and Impulses.                                                                                Everyday we must try and better ourselves. Everyday we struggle, to stay in line. Whether we want to go out, or finish that assignment we've been bullshittin' on. To get with this person, knowing that he/she is freaky, or date that saint who everyone thinks is weird To go to the club, knowing you might see your EX or that homegirl you wanna talk to. Do what you parents say, or do your own thing. Ralph Waldo Emerson once said "Imitation is suicide." But it is also said that you must "Find a way or make one." We struggle to find our way in life, not because we are lost, but because we try and fight our upbringings, principles and conscience. The pi...