Life As I See It

So sometimes, I'll ask people about the type of day they're having: an A Day or a B Day, meaning: how are you looking at the glass; half full or half empty? For me, I look at it like: "who cares about the glass? What's in the glass is the question." I try to imagine that it has tea in it. I love tea! Green tea, black tea, white tea, red tea. I love tea. But that's besides the point. I try to look at it realistically. If it's too low, I'll try to fill up. If it's too high I'll drink some to reach half. Regardless, I don't like to feel too happy or too sad. But I have developed a happy medium. Not too happy; not too sad. What do you think about A days and B days?

We're born into a country that nowadays many die in by force; few are willing to die in and even fewer are willing to die for. The officers, firemen, EMT's and such are fighting to save lives in a country where those same lives don't amount to as much as they used to. We now live in a world where victims can point a finger at someone and it's misinterpreted and shut down for profit. Back when I was growing up, disrespect wasn't tolerated; telling your mom that you hated her was out of pocket and would get you beat up. Now? You see mothers getting arrested for disciplining their kids when caught breaking into a neighbor's house. We now live in a country where the president can throw a fit and destabilize the livelihood of almost a million people.....

So I'm now employed; and Uncle Harris left me with these tips: Advice: 1) Learn everything about your job as good and fast as possible. 2) Become indispensable and needed. 3) Take every opportunity to get more training that your company will pay for...including conferences and webinars. 4) Consider doing some of the "thankless" jobs/tasks" that others might shy away from and excel at them. 5) Set your eyes and goals on your next/ideal position at your company and diplomatically strive for it. 6) Find a Mentor! 7) Don't focus on being necessarily liked but focus on being respected for your work. 8) DON'T GET YOUR HONEY WHERE YOU GET YOUR MONEY! 9) Arrive 15 minutes early and leave 15 minutes after your scheduled time... whether you are paid for it or not. 10) Sometimes you have to agree to disagree and not always try to bring people to your side if thinking. Please refer to the aforementioned often (weekly) during your first six months). OK...? ...

So recently, tried something new; I tried voyeurism. For those that don't know what it is. It's watching your spouse have sex with another person. Not for the possessive or the faint of heart. I tried it with my girlfriend and best friend. They tried to get it to work; I had to step out for a couple of reasons. They panicked because they were afraid I was plotting to kill them both (😂 the nerve of some people). I had to talk them out of their individual guilt trips to keep it moving. Otherwise, we would have had a case on our hands. Long story short: I realized that I am a bit clingy and just how fast I detached when it happened. Oh and Happy Holidays

My dad died yesterday..... I got the news today. How do I feel? Numb, not the numbness felt when you hate someone. But the numbness felt when for the first 15 years of experience; everyday was a painful reminder that you were brought into the world alone and that's essentially the same way you'll go out. Phillip Augustus Holmes, was a talented man, a loving husband and a doting father. He taught me how to fish, how to care for dogs and gave me a taste of my old school music. While I was young when I knew him; I'll never forget the time spent at his house listening to records and getting in trouble for opening collectors edition Hot Wheels cars. I remember getting my hair cut (an army crew cut) by him. I remember him introducing me to his wife (Barbara Holiday - who never got the title she deserved.) All this to say, we are committed to the earth. We are born from clay; and to clay we must return..... Ashes to ashes; dust to dust. Rest in Peace and Quiet Father. Yo...

Typically, Birthdays are celebrating the achievement of ending of one chapter and the beginning of the next one. So I'm going to break the tradition of receiving things and give back to the world that (despite the numerous flaws) has kept me motivated to prove a point: that I can be a good change in the world. As I'm typing this, I'm currently donating blood. This significant because 5 years ago I was given blood to keep me alive safely. So today, I'm hoping I give someone else that same gift.

Over the front door...... On the outside should be a ritual that dispells all negative energy and feelings towards anything or anyone. Should be treated like a trashcan for those instances. On the inside should be the driving force behind us moving, shaking and grooving through the world. The reason why I am moving forward is because I see that I have a purpose to show people that not everyone is going to seek to be vengeful or spiteful towards you.