Light's Out

Coming to realize that I have been living in a room with no windows and one door.

I was reminded just how absolute death is.

There's no respawn point.

No one ups 🍄

No fairies or potions to revive you.

I've always that my death would minimal and not mean much. But in death is when we are remembered most. I'm by no means aiming to die any sooner than predated. And reading the news about all these people dying is something that is scary to me. Instead of asking about them caring for me, I'm asking about what I can do to ensure my survival.....

That last page isn't written yet....

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