Life As I See It

So recently, tried something new; I tried voyeurism. For those that don't know what it is. It's watching your spouse have sex with another person. Not for the possessive or the faint of heart. I tried it with my girlfriend and best friend. They tried to get it to work; I had to step out for a couple of reasons. They panicked because they were afraid I was plotting to kill them both (😂 the nerve of some people). I had to talk them out of their individual guilt trips to keep it moving. Otherwise, we would have had a case on our hands. Long story short: I realized that I am a bit clingy and just how fast I detached when it happened. Oh and Happy Holidays

My dad died yesterday..... I got the news today. How do I feel? Numb, not the numbness felt when you hate someone. But the numbness felt when for the first 15 years of experience; everyday was a painful reminder that you were brought into the world alone and that's essentially the same way you'll go out. Phillip Augustus Holmes, was a talented man, a loving husband and a doting father. He taught me how to fish, how to care for dogs and gave me a taste of my old school music. While I was young when I knew him; I'll never forget the time spent at his house listening to records and getting in trouble for opening collectors edition Hot Wheels cars. I remember getting my hair cut (an army crew cut) by him. I remember him introducing me to his wife (Barbara Holiday - who never got the title she deserved.) All this to say, we are committed to the earth. We are born from clay; and to clay we must return..... Ashes to ashes; dust to dust. Rest in Peace and Quiet Father. Yo...

Typically, Birthdays are celebrating the achievement of ending of one chapter and the beginning of the next one. So I'm going to break the tradition of receiving things and give back to the world that (despite the numerous flaws) has kept me motivated to prove a point: that I can be a good change in the world. As I'm typing this, I'm currently donating blood. This significant because 5 years ago I was given blood to keep me alive safely. So today, I'm hoping I give someone else that same gift.

Over the front door...... On the outside should be a ritual that dispells all negative energy and feelings towards anything or anyone. Should be treated like a trashcan for those instances. On the inside should be the driving force behind us moving, shaking and grooving through the world. The reason why I am moving forward is because I see that I have a purpose to show people that not everyone is going to seek to be vengeful or spiteful towards you.

At one point in time, had you had told me that 5 years later I'd be a college graduate with multiple certifications applying to possibly work for the City of Atlanta. I'd look at you like you were facing the left, because there could be no possible way you could be right. But here it is, November 1, 2018; and I'm awaiting my 26th birthday in 7 days and eager to hear from the city to know if I truly made it or not. After dating the one girl that I was practically enamored and on the verge of being obsessed with for years. And lost in a month. I've decided to count my stripes and the blessings from them. At one point in my life, I never knew I would be happy to be a black man in America.

So in recognition of the month of October as breast cancer awareness and mental health awareness month. I'm going to try to take a different approach to the way I make the blog posts. And in this one, I'm going to actually write to the people that I think about on a daily basis and I will let you know how I feel about you. 1. Dad (Anthony T. Bostic) You are truly a blessing and inspiration to me. Allowing me to see you as a person and you parenting me as you have. I've learned a lot from you. I've become a better man with a recognized past, a good present and a interesting future. I went from a personified variable to a high school graduate to a college graduate. You stuck behind me and never folded even when countless people have. As I prepare to move forward and move out; I'm confident that I can prosper with the family you've given me and the family I've created. Thank you. 2. Uncle Harris (Harris C. Bostic, II) Thank you for embracing me as soon a...

Free at last..... Free at last..... THANK GOD ALMIGHTY! I'M FREE AT LAST! There is so much pressure...... And I'm applying about 90% of it 5 years 60 months 260 weeks 1,825 days 2,628,000 minutes 31,536,000 seconds Since the day I had to make a choice between living and dying. And afterwards; having to decide on just how much I love others and love myself. I could have been a true burden and not improved at all and forced my family to have to succumb to being alone and sacrificing their lives to make sure that I can retain mine. Slowly but surely I made sure I broke history and got tubes removed and replaced my past reputation with a better present and a more dynamic future. I've broken records, I've talked people out of committing suicide, I've graduated college, I've taken things in stride...... I've supported people who have been a burden to me and others..... I've supported people who have the time, money, resources and staples to s...