Life As I See It

Saw in on a Netflix show called Daybreakers (great show BTW so check it out when you get a chance) the following quote: "Day Dreamer and a Night Thinker". So I began to think about how I've been doing lately. I just reached my 1 year anniversary with my job, saved $4k+ when I move, I have stock options, retirement and then some..... So you'd think I'd be pretty happy about my accomplishments right? Well I am, elated actually. But I'm also realizing that I'm developing a pretty nasty temper. And I mean short and violent. I told an ex friend that I can do magic; if he keeps testing my patience, I'll turn his warm body into a cold one. (Yikes 😳) Pretty sure that I'm going to be told that I'm crazy and I need to seek help. Y'know, the same thing any former foster child is told. But as I'm lying down thinking of why my mind is so clouded by anger. Then it hits me: I'm tired of people having feelings directed TOWARDS me versus having fee...

So I think I'm going to start doing reviews. Alright! So I purchased the album Apple Danish by Takamaru Gaiden..... https://bandcamp.com/christopher_bostic 👈 click here for this and MORE! (Editor's note: I'm not the artist I'm just a reviewer lol) So it popped up on my notifications at 12:45 in the morning. I listened to it in it's entirety, which typically I'd do eventually with J. Cole, Kendrick Lamar and Flying Lotus albums. It's a pretty good album. Intrance (yes I know I it's spelled "entrance") starts with a demand for an unknown device to turn on the TV. I personally think that he used Google Home 😂. Apple Danish is something new and exciting, but familiar. It's 22-23 plus tracks and it's something for everyone. My personal favorites are Vennus, Heller, and Hateno (for anyone who loves Breath of the Wild) It's a digital celebration for every occasional occurrence. I highly recommend that you give it a listen and...

Warning: This may trigger some people of different cultural heritages and races so I apologize for the following stance. But I however, am not apologetic for the reasonings behind it. Let's get it. I, as a black in 2,019th year of the Lord feel the following about abortion: I am Pro-Choice for the following reasons: 1) a child should not be the forced to live in the world where we don't even know where we are headed. 2) Not all doors opened lead to a safe room but not all doors lead to chaos either. 3) as we currently are, we have no safeguard from others (sometimes not even ourselves). The reason why I am pro-choice because I feel like just because people have sex doesn't mean they are inherently obligated to have a kid on the off choice that a baby is introduced into the equation. Because as any seasoned parent will tell you: there is nothing that can prepare you for the experience of having a kid. I also feel as though an abortion shouldn't be an automatic c...

What's up world? Seeing as how I feel that I will be the only one that reads this I'll spare you the intro. Feeling like I'm sprung, the person attached to this post is still attached to me..... I'm in a whole relationship with someone else but make moves as if she's still relevant to my present. Her presence were presents when I can afford to pay the price for the rentals. But I know that she and I are 2 different wavelengths. She wants to see how high she can get. I am going to see how far I can go and how much I can learn as I go. Been up since one today and she's been on my mind a lot. It's days from my birthday and I still wonder if I'll get a "hey Chris, I hope you have a wonderful birthday....Nix 😘" type message. Doubt it, but one can dream right? Hell I wonder if she even thinks of me.... Tuh, even if she does , there's nothing I can do to change the circumstances. A whole bunch of arguing about why we shouldn't date after 10 y...

As I listen to the titular song of this post by the great Marvin Gaye, it's a day before your 27th birthday and I suddenly want you to do things that I have never wished for you to experience in life. I, as a person who wishes for the best for everyone that I have and haven't had a chance to meet in this world, wish the worst things for you to experience. Nothing that'll can kill you though. I now understand that it's a cop out that you don't deserve to receive. I gave you 10 years of my life, and you threw it to the wind.... And for what?? A bisexual college ex? A God that you believe in not because it's appropriate but because of the fact that believing is the only thing that you can do to help stabilize the chaotic nature you've developed. So as I sit here and want you to want me just as I have always wanted you. I realize that I have been looking at it incorrectly. You're smarter than me by numerical viewpoints but the moments I have been cut and...

To Leroy and Darnetta, "Where's your empathy nigga? I promise I see the bitch in these niggas." - Clifford "T.I." Harris I'd like to apologize for my consent to the opportunity to consummation of a sexual relationship in December. To make the assumption that you would capable of doing it and then pushing forward with life (y'know Adulting) proved to be a mistake that would be extended for almost 6 months. But to be honest, I'm not sure why I expected it to start and end because of how it started: Darnetta, You simply asked if we could have a threesome. In which after our past experiences, I became nervous about saying "no" because I didn't want you to step out and cheat again. But then my mind starts working in overtime to see just how faithful to me you would be to the relationship (because you claimed to have had an epiphany after I broke up with you for Iniki.) But then again habits die hard right? So I began to list the peop...

Day by day, I'm gaining the courage to try.....eyes this is Try new things; meet new people, head to new places...... that's how you expected to start this right? Well allow me to shed some light for you: While yes, I am gaining the courage to try, I'm also gaining the steely resolve to be the same person I'd like to say that I'm naturally developing into: A gregarious introvert that is learning two types of rights and wrongs. The two types that I'm learning are the ones that society dictates (Y'know the one that seems to change Forever and always) and the other is the one that I have set for myself. There's a big difference between the two. For example society says that now abortion is illegal (in their eyes, this is a good thing; I on the other hand disagree with this logic.) Now if anyone reads this and grabs A tiki torch and demands to know why I feel this way, hear me out: A) Women should be given the option as to whether or not they want to ...